12.29.2024

Perverts, Freaks, Jojifuku, and Weirdness.

 


     Something that I notice recently on the web is the fact that people will do anything to avoid being true to themselves. They would rather have a fake facade than to just be real and own their personalities and interests... 

    I saw a tiktok video where a girl was showing off a Super Sonico figurine and it was a figurine of her as a baby with white frosting dripping from her face... She also showed the other Super Sonico figurines that she owned. Someone decided to question why she even owns the baby figure (since it is obviously a figure that was created to cater to lolicons) and she responded by saying that it was cute. Someone brought up that she has frosting on her face and that it is a sexually suggestive figurine. She then responded by saying, "It's just cake ^v^" .

    She then broke into a long tangent about how the oddly positioned white cake frosting on her face is definitely NOT supposed to be sexually suggestive (because as we all know... Japanese creators have NEVER put cake frosting on a character's face as a nod towards bukkake.... ever!) and she also justified her ownership of other Sonico figures as her "just being cute". My main issue with this is the fact that she won't just tell the truth and just say that she is a gooner and that she bought the figures because she finds them sexually appealing... She won't own her figures with her chest and will run to silly and nonsensical excuses as to why she owns them instead of simply telling the truth and saying, "I love scantily clad women, and I am a lolicon."

    I think I'd have more respect for these kinds of people if they just owned up to their perverted nature and told the truth... I recently went to the mall and bought an explicit Yuri manga as well as two scantily clad figurines (one of Lum.) and whenever people ask me about it, I tell the truth and I tell them that I bought it because I genuinely enjoy sexy scantily clad anime women, and I thought they were cute... I bought the manga because I love Yuri. I have no reason to lie. I feel like it's very silly to make excuses for this type of behavior because it just makes you look like a loser. 

    It reminds me of all the times people would come onto tiktok, show their collection of busty figures of scantily clad women, someone would asked them about it, and instead of just saying "I bought them because I love women" they say something like, "Oh, I just bought them because I wanted to fill my shelves, I don't actually like these kinds of figures.." or "I personally bought it just for the style, I don't actually condone or support lolicons or lewd figures" or some other stupid virtue signaly response. Just own it. If you're gonna be a pervert, freak, gooner, whatever... It's better to just own it and express your interests with your chest out than to hide with your tail between your legs...

    I see this in the people online who dress in the Jojifuku fashion style. There are a bunch of obvious lolicons and people with autopedophilia kinks who dress in this style and when you draw the line between them and it's slightly pedobaity origins, they come for you and insist that it's YOU who's the pedo, and not them.... y'know... the person who is actively participating in pedobaity behavior. Jojifuku is known for having pedobaity connections because it was consistently shown in adult photoshoots and photoshoots in which the target audience is obviously lolicons. Something that people often forget is that adult women can also appeal to pedophilies if they look the part. Some sick men know that being a pedo is wrong and so they get the closest thing. A barley legal teen or a woman who, in their opinion, closely resembles a young girl.

    However, most people who participate in this will insist that they aren't pedobaiting at all when they clearly are. They will make posts where they bring attention to how young they look (I'm a baby, "ppl say i look 12"), their small body measurements (mentioning how flat their chest is, mentioning how short they are), and even infantilizing themselves by comparing themselves to children or animals and undermining their intelligence and comparing it to the intelligence of an animal or child.....

    This style combined with this behavior is obvious pedobaiting. But if you say something about it, they'll play dumb and tell you that that's not what they're doing when... yes, that IS what they're doing. This fashion style has origins connected to pedophiles and that is something that needs to be acknowledged. These girls wear these clothes, infantilize themselves online to appeal to predators, and point fingers and play dumb when they're called out..

    Now, why not just say "I'm a lolicon and I love getting attention from fat pedophiles" with your chest? why hide behind excuses... There's no excuse for this kind of behavior. Just say, "i'm a lolicon." say "I'm an autopedophilie" say, "I love age play" Just tell the truth, let everyone know that you're a perverted freak, and leave it at that. No need to lie... because then you look even worse than you already do... 

    Unfortunately for you, there is no excuse for owning or participating in certain things... If you walk in on your uncle reading a porno magazine, you'd laugh at him for saying something like, "Oh, I'm just looking at this because I'm trying to study augh... anatomy! yeah, I just needed to see the naked body so I can draw them later...." (Your uncle does not draw. and has never shown an interest in art, ever...) So why should we not laugh and poke at these obvious perverts when they try to cover their ass.

    It's extremely embarrassing.... Anyways, I am planning to go to my local anime store to buy some more sexy figures myself... I may even make the next blog post about them and maybe I'll make another blog about the Yuri manga I'm reading since I'm almost done with all the currently available... The next volume drops in March. So, I'll just talk about everything up to the most recent volume!

    Anyways, bai baiiiiii ^v^


           

 

12.27.2024

I love pink polka dot

 


    There is a special place in my heart for pink polka dotted items. I've been obsessed with pink polka dot for some time, and I wish I could find more of it. It's extremely cute. It feels very cutesy. I also like red polka dot and blue polka dot.... and black polka dot... I just love polka dots. I bought a red polka dot tube shirt and a pair of red polka dot glasses to go with. It's really pretty. I'm not sure why polka dots make me so happy. It's a very "child-like" print, so I suppose it is my inner child feeling that way.

    Growing up, I owned a lot of red polka dot. I still have a hello kitty polka dot bedsheet from when I was a toddler. I yearn for this print. Next to pink floral on black patterns. I always buy clothing with polka dots on them... I am having a hard time looking for red socks with white polka dots on them... Which is extremely upsetting. But I'll find some eventually. I just have to keep looking. Hopefully, I can find some at my local mall.

    Polka dot makes me sooo happy that my mood has changed completely. I was extremely sad prior to writing this and now I'm feeling much better, Lmao. Perhaps the answer to all my problems in life is more polka dot.... and more trips to the mall LOL. I love going to the mall. Being in the mall is so rejuvenating. Seeing all the people, getting snacks, shopping, walking around, etc. I could never understand how anyone could dislike the mall. The mall is paradise to me. It's like everything I could ever want is all there in one spot. It's fun. Spooky during the Christmas season though....

    Anyways...............

    Sorry for being a debbie downer all the time. I realized all my blogs are mooody. I plan to get out soon (force myself out of the house...) and I want to take more pictures and make more blogs surrounding them. Unforch, I don't have a cord to transfer photos and so I have nothing to share for now... (darn.) I just love dumping my thoughts here... whether they're sad, silly, or positive.


Anyway, bai baii ^v^

  

           

 
 

12.18.2024

My disgusting social media addiction and the constant stream of misery and doom.

 As the year comes to a close soon, I wonder if I spent my time well. I told myself that I would do sooo much during the summer, fall, and early winter... but tbh, I hardly did any of it. I tried to find a reasoning as to why I just didn't feel the energy to do anything. Perhaps it was my diet, my environment, the stress, any many other things... all kinda stacked on top of each other. I think all of this really had an effect on me. I could barely do anything and honestly, I felt that I lost interest in the things that I was so interested in prior. It's like I got bored with everything that would typically entertain me. 

    I feel kinda awful for it. For wasting away for several months. I genuinely have no excuse for it. I can't even explain why.. because I don't know why. But despite all of that, there was still a lot of positive things that happened this year.... i got the clothes I wanted, I got cool figurines, i managed to get my funds handled, i got to talk to old friends, so on and so forth... so it's not all doom and gloom. I guess I'm just disappointed in myself. I'm upset with myself because I could have made this year greater for myself. But i didn't and i don't even know why. I don't know why doing things is so hard for me. 

     But then I kinda realized I wasted so much time doom scrolling that by the time I stopped scrolling for the day.... most of the day had already passed.......... my social media use is killing me.

    Social media has become a poison for me. It's extremely boring and It's like misery central. I go on there and immediately, I'm hit with something awful. I can't even escape the awfulness. It's everywhere and damn near unavoidable. Social media makes me feel miserable. And despite all this, I constantly return..... I think it is about time I quit most of them. It's always hard to quit things that you've basically gotten addicted to. It's extremely embarrassing to think about, but I used to be addicted to Pony Town. Despite how boring the game was... and how much I hated it.... I couldn't stop going onto the site. It made me want to like.. explode. It was awful. And I kept asking myself... why?? Why do we keep returning here when we don't even like this game anymore...? I had no answer ofc ^v^. I was just being dumb.

    Eventually, I had to pretty much cut myself off... cold turkey... and it was genuinely difficult. Ofc... I wasn't having withdrawals like more serious addictions.. but I did find myself trying to convince myself to return because, "what if something genuinely funny and exciting is happening this time?" but there was never anything there for me to see. I had used the same argument to justify returning over and over again the last few times and I eventually caught myself and told myself that there was literally nothing to see... no one to talk to.. nothing more to do here. So what am I really missing out on?

    I think the same thing occurs with social media.. I tell myself to quit in order to better my life, I convince myself that I'll miss out on so much if I quit, I abandon my attempts to quit, cycles continues. But... I genuinely need to stop. The content I always see online is making me miserable. I have even caught myself adopting harmful ideas because I was being fed a certain kind of content so frequently, it made me feel a certain way and thus respond with hatred. My social media use has slowly turned me into someone I am not. This is very frightening to me. I wholeheartedly believe that the reason why we are more divided and isolated than ever before is because of social media and the content we consume... 

    Everything is made to divide us and make us fight one another... Everything is curated to make us have this "Us vs Them" kind of mentality. It's very easy to adopt certain mindsets when you are stuck in violent echo chambers. The alt-right pipeline isn't the only pipeline in which people are lead to violence. It's how everyone is always one extreme or another. You're either with us or against us. I realized this is in a lot of the political movements I showed interest in. There was always so many extremes.. and never enough nuance and understanding that, things aren't ALWAYS absolute. Thinking in absolutes and extremes all the time is extremely dangerous.... and I know that from experience. 

    Being isolated from an internet filled with nothing but misery and negativity sounds like a dream to me. Even websites like pinterest has ruined something for me. I think, as of right now, the only websites I wanna use are bluesky and tumblr... and ofc this site because my blogs will be here ^v^. But I suppose that could be my New Years Resolution. Starting a slow journey away from the internet and significantly lowering my social media use... Eventually. I also really wanna delete my twitter account one day. I think the fact that even thinking about eliminating social media from my life just gives me this massive wave of peace and relief... it just shows that it's time I start cracking down...

    I also need to draw.. I suck at drawing but I also suck at practicing. I can't make any promises ofc....... I also need to stop cursing... it's unladylike and I kinda miss when I was able to speak and express myself without swearing. anyway... blog over.. bai bai


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